I saw you in my dreams again last night Mom, can't remember much but the love and hugs we shared. I miss you so incredibly much Mom. Times it seems like you just left us and other times it seems like an eternity since you've been gone. I get all upset wondering if the fast decisions we had to make were the right ones. There are times I wish we never would have called in hospice, then I remember how sick you were...how your tumor was so affecting your breathing and the last thing I wanted...any of us wanted was for you to not be able to breath...to suffer, so maybe hospice and they way we did things were the right way. Oh I don't know Mom, it all happened so fast....too fast! I guess no matter how we did things, there would always be the 'what ifs'. It just wasn't fair, you were such a wonderful amazing Mom...grand mother...person! We all love and miss you more than ever. We always will Mom...you will live in our hearts forever and not a day will ever go by where I don't think of you! It's just so hard Mom, it is so hard not having you here with me, not seeing you, talking to you. My worst nightmare always was the day I'd lose you! I LOVE YOU MOM!!!! (((((HUGS)))))) *****KISSES*****