It's been 11 months today Mom, almost a year. I can't believe it. Times it feels like it was just yesterday, other times if feels like it's been forever ago. I was remembering this time last year. Last night, one year ago today, I had taken you into the ER in Lakeview because you just weren't getting any better. You were pretty weak so I put you in a wheel chair. They did several tests inclucing a chest x-ray and a head CT scan. All came back good. Your breathing was a little weak...pulse ox was only in the high 80'2- low 90's. The Dr gave you some breathing treatments and antibiotics. The chest x-ray showed bronchitis and the head CT scan was good. They said you'd be fine in a few days and sent us home. I went out to pull the van up close and the nurse wheeled you out. Before we even got out of the parking lot you said to me "Tammy, I am so glad they did all those tests, at least we know it isn't something bad like lung cancer". I brought you here and you spent the night in Bryson's room. I didn't sleep that well in case you needed me thru the night. I heard you wake up around 7 ish the next morning and I flew out of bed and there you were coming out of the bathroom. I asked you "How do you feel Mom". And you shook your head...'I feel pretty good'. I made you some coffee, and you stayed awhile before going home. I remember it like it was yesterday Mom, you just never got any better, the following week you went to Beanie's Dr and a CT scan that I insisted be done showed our worst nightmare to come true...a large tumor. I miss you so incredibly much Mom, it is so hard not having you here with us. The kids grow up without you, the days go by without you...life goes on without and it really sucks Mom. Sunday we are going to the casino. First time I've been there since you passed away. I can't really believe I am going, but something tells me to just go. Maybe I'll win big...nah, that'll never happen, you were always the lucky one. Well Mom, I need to go fix lunch for the kids. I LOVE YOU MOM!!!! I'll stop by the cemetery soon to check on your flowers. We've been lucky to have some good rain this summer so I haven't had to worry about watering them. I MISS YOU!!! ((((((HUGS))))) *****KISSES*****