Hi Mom, just sitting here thinking about you. Not a day goes by that I don't miss you or think about you! Hard to believe it's been over a year! It snowed out today, Dale took Bryson outside to play in it...he LOVED it! He always was an outdoor kid! Tay's doing good, still no gagging/nausea. She goes back to see Dr C next Monday and then she's having an ultrasound to see why she is getting so many urine infections. Then on Friday she goes for a CT scan and MRI. So the next week holds a lot for us/her. I know you'd be worried if you were here, you always worried about things like that, but at the same time you were our strength and support! I miss you so incredibly much Mom. Thanksgiving is this week. I guess we won't be having it at your house this year, probably never again actually. Nor will we see Christmas there again. I did go over and pick up all your decorations. I'll put them up here. I am sure Bryson will enjoy them...as will I. I picked up a few other things as well....just little things. I couldn't help thinking when I was over there if you were watching over. I took some of the pictures of the kids you had hanging up. I also took the frame I made for you last Christmas. Along with your turkey roaster we got you for Christmas...your last Christmas with us. Oh and 2 pillows and a blanket, I couldn't resist. You always had tons of pillows and I have very few. The big things Shelley and I are going to go thru this weekend. She is going to try and come down on Sunday. Paul is bringing her in his truck and Dale said they could use the trailer to take things back in. I guess waiting over a year to do all this was the better thing to do. While I still find it hard to believe that you are really gone the intial shock isn't there anymore. I guess I am realizing that you really aren't here with us, that you're not coming back. I still can't say it though Mom, I still can't bring the words to my lips. Not sure if I ever will be able to do that. Well Mom, I better sign off for now. I LOVE YOU!! I MISS YOU SO MUCH!! Oh something I forgot to tell you (I think) a month or so ago while we were at clinic the band Mercy Me they sing 'bring the rain' the song I have here on your website. They came to the hospital and a small group of us (Me, Beanie, Bry and Tay included) got to see them, they put on a little concert for us in the chapel. It was so cool...we loved it! You should have seen Tay....she just bee-bopped thru all the songs! I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU VERY MUCH!!! ((((((HUGS))))) ******KISSES******