Hey, rough night....damn nightmares! After 3+ years of mind wandering I finally give in and decide to put him aside (that was my New Years resolution actually) and now this, UGH!! I think I'd prefer the 'racing'. Died 3 times in my dreams last night. You were there, you tried to save us but you couldn't. I slid down the bank with Bryson and the ice broke and sucked us both in. You tried to grab us but you just couldn't reach. I remember holding him up and telling him not to let go of me. To just relax and go with it. I knew we were both going to die, but didn't want him to be scared...even though I was quietly freaking out. It was sooo real and then he closed his eyes. HORRIBLE feeling, but than I closed mine too. I woke up gasping, didn't want to go back to sleep but I did. Next thing I know Tay is on the edge of the steps and begins to roll. I went running, but couldn't reach her in time. We both went tumbling down =( Again I woke up gasping and again fell back asleep. You were there and I don't remember much else other than again I died, not sure how. But good grief I was never so happy to get out of bed this morning and honestly I am not looking forward to going back! TERRIBLE feeling! Anyhow, other than a train wreck I'm doing good. Working out has never felt better and I am actually beginning to feel good about myself again =) Bryson and I have been playing 'games' almost every night. He's into skip-bo, uno and monopoly. Such a goof kid he is, I just love having him. Couldn't be happier!! I have monopoly all set up now. I pinky promised him I'd be waiting when he got off the bus and well....25 minutes and he'll be here. I love you Mom. Hey a friend from Tay's hospital arrived there yesterday. Another child gone from their parents too soon. Big hugs to her will you please. Thanks! ((((((HUGS))))))) ********KISSES*********