Just waking up ( I KNOW!!) Yesterday hit me like nothing before. All of a sudden there we were, at the hospital getting ready for her MRI. I think with the wedding, all the company and all my running my mind just blocked out all the 'what ifs' and then....WHAM! Here we are, she's on her last straw, running out of options and no more road maps to re-write. The out come of this MRI is...well it leaves you with a feeling NO ONE can explain! I paced, I prayed and I visited the track to try and get my mind elsewhere, but no matter what I did I felt like someone had my heart in the palm of their hand clasping down tighter and tighter. I stopped in the Chapel and I know God doesn't heal a child based on who prays the most for them, but I do it anyway. I do it for the love it brings me, the faith and the hope. I know one day will be an 'even if He doesn't' day and I'll need every lick of strength of hope, faith. love and "BELIEVE" I can get!! The more I pray, the more others pray for us....the better of a person I become. I'm weak as heck...it is God who holds me up, THAT I know!! I love you Mom. A good night sleep...by body still feels like it's been hit by a truck. Guess 15 miles a day will do that to you. But I'll be OK!! ((((((((HUGS))))))))) ******KISSES*******