It's been six months Mom, six months since you left us, six months since I kissed you and held your hand. I miss you so very much. I took Tay to get blood today and decided to wait for the results. I was looking in the gift shop and all of a sudden I started shaking, I don't have you anymore, you've been gone from our lives for 6 months and yet I still find it hard to believe and accept. It is still so hard Mom, you were taken from us so fast. I think to myself, when you left your house that day...to go for your broncoscopy, did it enter your mind that you may never walk in your house again? How often did you think of death and were you scared? Was that why you didn't sleep at night very good...because you were afraid? I remember sitting with you in the garage one day and you asked me "oh Tammy, I wonder if I will ever be able to mow my lawn again". Tay's doing better Mom, her counts were good today! I am so glad I waited for them. I take Bryson to the Urologist tomorrow, then on Wednesday Tay goes back to the Ear Doctor. Her ear seems to be doing good to me, it doesn't stink anymore and she doesn't mess with it nearly as much. Sometimes after I put her drops in her ears she will pull at it. Jay is doing good too, he was home for the weekend. Duff's doing good too Mom, today he realized our new puppy, Macy is a girl. I love you Mom! ((((((HUGS))))))) *******KISSES********