Happy Birthday Mom, Today we should be going to the casino and having fun, but instead you will be having your first birthday in heaven with God. It seems so unfair that you had to leave us, but at least you we had time to tell you goodbye and tell you we would all be okay. I just did not think about all the holdiays and the birthdays that would go by without you by our side. I just could not go to your home today and celebrate your birthday. The pain is to deep for me to be there today. When I am there I hear you cough in bed then the patter of your feet going to the bathroom and then to the coffee pot you go and then to your chair, and as you set down you light up a cigerette and drink your coffee. I look at that chair and I wonder, are you setting there? Today would of been your lucky day at the casino Mom. I can feel it in my mind. Tammy and Shelley are coming to the cemetary today to visit and let off balloons. You would of enjoyed that. You loved life but you loved your family more. As I am writing this the tears start to fall because I miss and love you so much. I always said through out my life that I don't no what I would do when you died. The pain is so deep inside of me and I know a part of you is in me. You carried me and delivered me and left a part of you with me. Mom I just hope that today is as special for you as it was when you where with us. Mom, I love and miss you. Happy Birthday Love always Debbie