Hey Mom, been a while I know. Need to blow of some steam and well...it's your lucky night, haha. I tell ya, I want to take every cigarette smoker and smash them in the face and ask them WHY? HOW? How can you smoke that f-ing shit...do you not care about your family?? A few months ago a friend was dx'd with lung cancer and now he is on hospice, with a week or so left and now...tonight another friend. She's in the same hospital that you died in. Spectrum Health Heart Center. All her lymph nodes on the right side of her neck are swollen and she has a spot on her lung along with a mass wrapped around her wind pipe. JUST LIKE YOU! She can't talk and she can't breath. JUST. LIKE. YOU!! They gave her 'emergency' radiation treatment to try and shrink it a little...but we both know what little that's gonna do. Been there done that, right? I know everyone dies. We all know that, but dying from a cancer that is PREVENTABLE is pure SHIT! Watching you die from something that was PREVENTABLE had you NOT smoked was utter hell on me! And by the look in your eye when the Doctor was telling you your prognosis...I know how you felt and if you could have taken it all back, you would have stopped smoking YEARS ago! I love you Mom and I miss you like CRAZY. This is not meant to bash you, but then you know that. I'm just MAD! I HATE cigarette smoking, it's my biggest hate! Just please ask God to wrap his arms around this family as they endure the hell that is about to be unraveled! ((((((HUGS)))))) ******KISSES******