Hey, hey! Let's start with Tay. She's doing MUCH better! Can finally see that 'light'. If all goes smoothly we should be home this weekend. She had a ton of 'fixing' to be done...same ol' Tay! She goes in on Friday to have her temp line taken out and her new port will be put in, plus she'll have her MRI. They'll keep her overnight (possibly 2) just to make sure her counts don't go haywire again and then we'll be good to go. Was introduced to the Palliative Care Docs yesterday, sigh! Everyone (mainly them) assures me that their main purpose is not to take away the treatment she is already receiving but to make sure that with everything going on with her, that the most important thing is always being met....her HAPPY and COMFORT! How can I argue with that?? Gram is coming up in the morning after Bry gets off to school and then I am going to run home and take care of some stupid 'business'. Can't believe how hard life down here can be, as if things aren't stressful enough on me, 'life' has to throw in a HUGE punch to the gut. SUCKS!! You're LUCKY! If it wasn't for my kids still needed me I'd be yelling "HEAVEN, PICK ME PICK ME!!" Just seems no matter how hard I try I just can't seem to win.... Tay's been agitated all evening. No matter what I tried, I just couldn't get her settled down. Nurse gave her some tylenol and benedryl. It helped for about 2 hours and then she was back at it. Resident Dr came down to take a peek at her and of course she was as calm as can be. 5 minutes after she left it started back up again. They ordered ativan for her, but then we changed our minds and decided to just give her a dose of her trazadone a little early. It should be here any time, but in the meantime she's quiet for now. I certainly hope her stress wasn't induced by me! Good god that's the last thing I want. She's so good at feeling me out. As soon as her meds are ran I'm gonna go to bed early. I'm to the point of exhaustion! You know that kind where your body passes out but your mind is still awake? I pushed my bed right up against the window the last couple nights. Our room has a beautiful view and I thought falling asleep to the city lights would help. It's after 1:00 by the time I get to bed and I usually crash within minutes, but my mind never sleeps. I can hear everything going on around me in my sleep, but my body is too exhausted to move. It's in a way like sleep paralysis. It's weird and I don't like! Finally my mind forces my body to wake up and by 5 AM I'm up, still feeling exhausted, UGH! Well, I better go tend to little miss grumpy. She woke back up. Love you!!!! ((((((((HUGS))))))) *******KISSES****** PS. Keeping Bry with me tomorrow night! I know he's missed a lot of school, but my heart needs him MORE than school does.