Me again Mom, you know how we always just talked...not really about much, we'd just talk to talk. Today wasn't much better than yesterday. I think as the holidays are approaching my stress level is kicking into high gear. I did get all the kids to bed at the same time without any problems, which gave me a couple hours of peace and quiet. I just sat at the table with your picture close by. Thinking of you makes me sad, but at the same time it settles me down when I am about to explode! I miss you Mom. Dale told me today "your going to have to not have all these pictures and poems sitting around,I just start to forget and then I see one of these, remember... and it makes me sad again". I told him "heck no, they will always be out, I'll never have a day of not thinking of you or 'remembering'. He wasn't being mean about it, he's sad too...it's hard for him too Mom. Bry now calls you "Gama" instead of "Nama". He looks up at your picture, and says "Gama". He brings me your poem or your picture...he points to your flowers and says "Gama". He's talking so well. He was before you got sick, so you know what I am talking about. Now he's putting a couple words together though. He LOVES Elmo so we are going to get him some Elmo things for Christmas. I also want to get him a jumping ride on horse. He loves those too. Your Little Taylor is doing good. She enjoyed the recliner at your house on Saturday. Her chemo is Friday. Oh and I have to give her a shot tonight...it is interferon night. I've been getting Bryson to bed at night then rocking with her. It is so nice! I really need that time with her. You know how she is such an Angel and all these other kids are so demanding. She always gets the short end of our time. She LOVES for me to rock with her. Baby Puppy (Duffle) is doing good too Mom :o) Still gets on the table and I still tell him "Grandma would spank your butt Duff if she saw you up there". Oh, guess what...now BRYSON climbs up on the table! Guess he thinks 'if Duff can do it so can I'. Well, I better get out there and give Tay her shot and meds. I love you Mom and I miss you sooooo much! I am ready for another one of your happy dream visits!! I could really use a hug! (((((HUGS)))))) *****KISSES******