Oh Mom I just miss you so much. You'd think after almost 4 months I'd realize you weren't coming back, but I still find it hard to believe...or maybe I just don't want to accept it. Guess I am having a pretty crappy evening. I layed down with Bryson to get him to sleep and my mind went back to when you were so sick in the hospital. How we all had to watch you go thru all that...it was hard Mom. I'll never forget it. Now I sit here and think ahead of what Christmas will be like. Usually about this time some of us kids get together to see what the other is going to get you for Christmas. Sometimes we'd go in on something. Our holidays were all centered around you Mom. We loved sharing them and spending them with you. Never did I expect to have gone in on a grave blanket for you Mom...it just isn't fair that we lost you this way and so soon. I wasn't ready Mom...I still needed you! Ok, Mom...enough of that. I can almost feel you telling me to stop thinking like that. I remember the last words you tried to speak. I told you "I love you Mom" and you said "LOVE" right back to me. I will never forget that Mom...I LOVE YOU...I MISS YOU!! I am so glad to see that Debbie is going to try her hardest to keep things in the family. You guide us Mom...you guide us in the right direction to make that possible. ((((HUGS)))) ****KISSES**** PS. Tay has chemo on Wednesday...we see Dr C. He will go over her complete MRI...showing us the actual scan I am sure.